i failed ; ahaha tahts it  i gave up to late & missed my chance .... kelvin ihz movin` ... so sad ... my spy ihz going away im gonna miss hym so much ; who will walk wid me to klasses ; who will b thurr talking about nonsense ; haha who will b thurr to make inside jokes wid me ... aHHh i dunt want hym too move ....

I cry so much that it hurts me inside
It hurts me so much that i break down and cry
I cry so much that blood takes over my tears
And i bleed so much that my lyfe disappears

i dunno ... so C O N F U S E D ..... ]= smiles seems so HARD to pull off now a days ; i sit in klass daydreaming of waht and how i can live my lyfe .. but with each day gone by alito bit of myself dyes ... it wont take long tyll .. i cant feel da payn .. jus hopin` its soon ... /=

saranghaeyo

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aww crap daymmit we ghot testing nex week ; ahh going to skewl later and coming home later ahh crappers ; and onlie testing in my 2nd klass ; taht klass ihz lyk soo annoying lyk daymmit haha oh welps ; ahh stoopid kevin taht nuttball ; hym and his rainbow wrist band ; omg i hella dunt wanna test ; oof i forghot HAPPY LATE BDAY SARAHH ; and HAPPY LATE ANNIVERSARY TO YOU GUILNOR opps i forghot so much shyt ; oh welps me and my short term memory oh welps ; omg dis week was whoa ; stoopid joesph badddd tutor lyk HAHAHA he took away my cell wassup wid taht? n e ways im tyred ill update later.

sarang .

remy

this week was such a blur ... i dunt rememeber much .. and i dont ghots much to say .. how sad n e ways ... im so confused ... i think i lyk hym ...

tears of payn drip down lito by lito releasing the sorrow

remy

heylers peepz ; welps im at sarah`s house ryte now ; hehe she has to do here korean hw ; aww she looks so kute working on it hahaha ; n e ways today was awesome ; welps went over to sarahs house she was styll asleep haha taht gurl ; den cindy came over ; den david took us too taco bell and oakrigde ; and my brother was working in oak ... scary O_O hahha n e ways had a blaast saw peepz always glad to see them ya noes ; n e ways after we went home kicked it for awhilee den went to cindy`s house kicked it ahaha omg on our way home to sarah`s house we spent lyk 20 mins. trying to ghet to door gosh taht was so funny ; but omg scaryy O_O haha n e whoo ; im boreedd ; stoopid andy dydnt make it n e bettur ; grr stoopid april fools day ; dydnt even ghet to fool peepz ahah sarah ghot one on me how dense am i? n e ways a t da mall ; i bought huan sumthang too kinda pay hym backk for waht i dyd ; and hehe helen will b happy too!!! she bettur jus jokin` n e whoo im outtie ; ill tell the other shyt happenin` laters
sarang,
remy

edited x//____ april 2nd

gosh seeing sarah made me a lito bit happier ; gosh i will never wake taht gurl up agen ; jeez taht gurl haha it took me three hours yesterday just to make her change her klothes to go out ; n e whoo ; after i left her house at 930 she took mee too my mommie`s work ; i stayed insyde taht place ; grr she made mee say hi to too many peepz in my thoughts ; after an hour i ghot tired so went to da car and played music and slept ; ahh creepy i was sleeping den all of a sudden i hear a BOOM omg taht was lyk hella scary lyk daym dydnt expect taht ; so after my mommie finshed lyk at 12 ; she took me too goo eat ; omg i saw vivian thurr ; haha she was lyk omg remy waht happened to yur eye ; i was lyk waht happened ; den she was lyk oh itz jus a heart ; last nyte sarah put alito heart tattoo near my eye ; and da hearts purple so yah ; den  i went home kleaned and took a nice showerrr ; den went to sleep for lyk 6 more hours ; i feel bettur ahaha but OH NO skewl ihz on monday grr wtf haha n e ways im out yay ..

sarang ,

remy

im changing .. i think itz for the good ; ihz it true ihz my smile fading ; i never meant for it to b lyk dis ; im sorry if i wont smile all the tyme ; im sorry if it seems as tho i force my smiles ; im sorrry if most of the tyme im lost in thought ; im sorry if my face remains emotionlesz ; im sorry taht im not who i used to be ; but tahts just me ; im changing for the good ; ill b quiet ; ill b sweet ; ill b the gurl you`ll never expect me to be ; ill b gentle ; ill b smart ; ill b the wun who cares for yur heart ; ill b the gurl who everywun sees ; ill b the wun to help find yur way ; ill b da gurl in da shadows ; watching over you ; im sorry my smile wont shine ; im sorry i'll never b the same ; im sorry im selfish ; but i need to change b4 my heart feels n e more payn ... to the new me wid a broken smile

sarang,

remy